I want to change for change's sake. I want to heal because I know that this is my way of being, not because I expect that healing will bring to me something different.
The healing process can be sincere or a fake. It 'a fake (and therefore will not work) if you hide a reason; if you thinks that the world has done something against you. In words you say that you want to "heal" but in essence you want revenge on people who apparently had done you wrong.
This is the mechanism that render healing impossible, because you condition it to a victory against the people or situations that, according to you, led you to wish for healing itself. In this respect, healing becomes a fad, like those children who, frustrated after having tried a hundred times to put cubes on a stack, throw everything in the air, cry and want the parent to intervene.
But the problem is fundamental a problem of control: the kid wants to put ten cubes on the stack, it is curiosity about the external world (what if...), in adults the problem is the arrogance to fix everything, handle everything, control everything. And then life teaches that the cubes (people) go about their business, grow, change, die ...
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